I can’t open my mouth
because I might just scream
but I don’t want you to worry—
it was just another nightmare;
the shaking will stop eventually.
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Thank you for the smile
I didn’t see,
but don’t worry;
they told me about it.
I wonder if you saw me
the first time I felt confident
without my hand against the wall.
I wonder if you saw me
the few times I was completely alone.
Sometimes learning new things is scary
and this was definitely scary
and I’m definitely bruised and hurting
but it was fun.
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It’s about finding someone who cares. It’s finding someone who can make you laugh, even though the joke wasn’t funny. It’s filling pages of your notebook with her words and maybe you could use them later, or save them for a rainy day. It’s making up stories and writing poems and watching movies and finding new methods of procrastination and going on adventures and finding new reasons to smile.
I love the sound of breathing when you sleep;
it’s a comforting reminder
that you are there
and even though I wouldn’t wake you
you’d be there if I ever told you
how much I needed you.
So much of what I do is for you
or I want it to be
but I know damn well that nothing
is as it appears.
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I want to show you my hiding places:
here is where I go when I want to cry,
this is what I watch when I want to feel better about myself.
I want to hold your hand
as though it were a thing friends did
because I’ve long since given up caring
what we appear like from the outside.
When I greet 5 in the morning
after a night of tossing in bed,
I watch the sunrise from my window.
But I only see the grass, the road
and the tree that’s been there since
before I was born,
so I watch the colors of the street
change from so-navy-it’s-black blue to
indigo to denim blue.
I lose my train of thought
thinking of God knows what
until finally I finally see the grass
and wonder when it became green.
You see, I like to measure
distance
through shades of blue.
I find that you can always tell
how far away a mountain is
by its color
just as the first glance of land
while lost at sea
appears as blue as the sky.
You can look out at the stars
and feel so incredibly alone
until your desperation calls for light
so you go inside and hide until
the sun rise
and its rays lighten the world,
blue is gone from the grass
and everything is safe.
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You see, there is so much
I could say
and so much I want to share
that I don’t know where to begin.
So I let silence rest.
Every life is filled with stories and hardships
and my life has had more than its fair share
of wrong turns and hard times
but I don’t want to share my burdens with anyone.
I need to share my burden with someone.
I want it to be you.
I know now life gets better,
though I didn’t always,
and there are times
were I forget anything was wrong
and there are times
when I remember everything.
This is a sign of trust
I know I can take and give
but I can’t give all the way
and I’M SORRY
for all that I can’t do.
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I want to ask you to hold me
and not let go
until the tears have run out.
But I do not have the strength
to tell you this is what I need
and nor do I have the strength
to show you my tears
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I want to love you
the only way I know how.
I want to show you the stars
and the planets
and the spaces between
where nothing exists.
I want to love you
with open arms that only close
when you need a hug
and I want to be the strength
you don’t know how you
would live without.
I want to be the reason
you smile as you
fall asleep
and be what propels you
to be more than what you
ever thought you could be.
I want you to be the reason
I start writing love poems again;
unable to say anything I
really want to
but I will go down trying.
I want you to be the reason
I look for incoherent metaphors
struggling to describe wind
or the colors of the sky;
I want to love you
like nothing else makes sense in this world,
knowing it doesn’t have to
so long as we’re together.
I want to write you
every sappy line I can think of
and only feel slightly ashamed
that I couldn’t think of anything better.
I want to love you
like my six-year old brother loved Pokémon,
throwing pretend Pokéballs in the air and shouting
“I choose you!” in the front yard.
I want to be the reason
you walk a little taller
and believe that there’s nothing
anyone can do to stop you.
I wish I could fall asleep
before you for once,
so I wouldn’t know
loneliness, even for a moment.
But the sound of you breathing
is so goddamn comforting
and your peaceful face
is always calming, when I’m not.
It’s impossible to escape
the beauty of the night sky
when you can see the stars
and the Moon, even when clouds hide it.
It’s equally impossible
to be sad when I’m around you.
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I’ve found if you play music loud enough
most problems cease to exist
and can be found only through
the silence as the song switches.
I find myself listening to longer songs
and keeping it on repeat
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I want to ask favors from that
which does not like to make it easy.
At the same time I want to shout curses
at the top of my lungs
because I don’t want to hurt you.
And I can’t see any other ending
but I don’t want to let you go now
so I must ask for your forgiveness in advance.
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Under the cover of darkness
and in the security of blankets
and the refusal to think about
the actualities of tomorrow,
we can make promises
that, in this moment,
we full-heartily believe
that will come true
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If I asked you
If you wanted to watch the sunrise with me,
Long distance,
What would you say?
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